Tuesday, 30 August 2016

Fortune Cookies

I bought this really nifty little book full of little prompts of things to write about, but you don't get a whole lot of space to write in so it's like a zap of creativity and a ping of inspiration for lazy wannabe writers like myself. Last night I decided to have at it and opened to page one. "Write about yesterday's fortune cookie. It got everything wrong!"


Didn't it ever! But then, when are fortune cookies ever really accurate? Aside from that one that Filbert got one that read "bad luck and extreme misfortune will infest for pathetic soul for all eternity" Some frightful (and comical) shit happened to that cartoon turtle but in the end he did spin the wheel to become 'Mr Lucky'. Irony of ironies. Sure the world was left in smoking ruins around him but that was the result of one very bad day, not a very bad life. It came good in the end. Just like my day yesterday...I was having a fortune cookie for breakfast and was left in a state of utter shock and disbelief when I unfurled that little white strip of paper and saw that it read "don't eat fortune cookies for breakfast". That was it. Nothing more. I turned it over thinking there would be some horrible consequence on the back, nope, just crumbs. I ate that delicious fortune cookie anyway and went on to have a wonderful day. And the moral of the story? There isn't one. I couldn't link the two unrelated experiences and turn this into something profound. All I could do was make a reference to one of the greatest shows of my childhood and talk about almond flavoured biscuit shaped like a moon with a choking hazard stuffed inside.

Ta da!

Wednesday, 10 August 2016

Just keep hookin'

Yes I've been hooking! Over the past 4 weeks I've made the most part of a virus shawl, a number of pairs of booties, a beanie for a friend, a blanket for my lounge and a self-striping ribbed scarf which is currently my mobile bag project. It's all part of 'keeping my emotional bucket filled'. You know, do things that bring you joy and shit *ha!* But seriously, I'd be mad not to use my crocheting as a way of winding down. It's been my evening pass time while binge watching Rake on the nights that I don't go to bed at 8pm. I've been told by a very insistent friend (you know who you are) that I need to start watching Wentworth because I'm missing out so I guess that will be next after I finish season four of my current series. Does ABC produce some of the best Aussie drama/comedies ever? I believe the answer is yes. Yes it does.

Tuesday, 2 August 2016

The petrol station girl

Today I waited to buy a drink and a chocolate at a petrol station in Heatherbrae. It was overcast outside, it was beginning to rain, the wind was cold. I'd wandered in to go the bathroom, and to get a much needed sugar hit before continuing on our way. The cashier asked me a question, something about flybuys, or reward points of some kind, and I barely responded, looking down and feeling pretty down as well. Then I looked up and there was this beautiful person standing there smiling at me. I instantly responded to her smile and felt my spirits lift. I suddenly wanted to make sure I acknowledged her so I smiled back. She wished me well on the rest of my journey and it was honestly just what I needed right then are there. It wasn't fake. Whatever had encouraged her good mood had consequently encouraged mine. When you emanate genuine kindness and concern other people see it. When you give off negativity it's the same. I experienced both kinds today. One moment left me with a happy if not fleeting memory and the other more prolonged experience left me feeling small, insignificant and deflated. Unfortunately the moment wasn't enough to outweigh the length of time that followed but nonetheless I'm grateful for that moment of human kindness. It was enough to remind me that many people meet us for the first time and reach their own conclusions in life and there isn't much we can do to change how we are perceived, but we do have control over something more important, and that is how we choose to reflect the feelings shown to us onto others. Be the reason someone smiles, don't be the cause of emotional bruises. It might not take the place of pain, but it's always a better option not to cause more pain don't you think?

Just try to put some genuine kindness into your words and into your eyes when you meet a stranger as you are bound to sometime this week. Into a simple 'hello', into a simple 'how are you?', into a simple 'you look fabulous today'. And don't worry about the reaction of the other person, your words may affect them more greatly then you know. You can never be too trusting, there is no such thing as too kind. It's the hardest thing to do when it feels like no one notices your efforts but the important thing is that you remain true to yourself.

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